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Tuesday, October 26, 2004

helo(o.o)

... had been too lazy to blog about anything recently anyway today din go sch hee'hee due to a very lame excuse "it was raning this morning when i woke up".. hee'hee hmMm.. this gonna be a long post but where shall i start from??
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last friday? yep maybe..
alright.. got Nokia 6600 instead of SE P900 for my project hiaz.. Nokia 6600 isn't kinda new phone so wasn't really a wOo when i use it..anyway.. there are problems when i install my midlet into the phone.. kinda like authorization failed.. hiaz.. i can't fig out wad's ttt damn error!! when i install other MIDlets it works but juz not mine.. Y!!?? hiaz.. anyway tried n tried to change whhatever settings i could possibly see but nothing works..!! tt gave me more headache.. hiaz.. u asking me y i din go n ask my supervisor?? yeah wad a qn to ask.i think i rather save my breath than to vomit blood after asking him argh i juz can't understand y is he supervising me on this project when he dun really knows a single things.. oki i shall tell u wad his reply would be if i ask him that qn.. "huh! can't be, did u try installing other midlets? it should be able to work" then he will walk off without giving a actual solving method.. argh!. sianz.. but anyway went to play pool as usual with LeEM, tiKo xuanYi, n LTF.. hey hey guess wad i won all 3 of them.. KoOl? ;p neh.. fun fun.. went off at 6pm sharp to find myself stoning about another head&heart aching problem.. was wondering y did danica turned so cold recently? got me so flared up i was so pek chek when i was on the bus but luckily din do anything stupid tho.. told myself i will have to do something to get rid of this flare inside me i won't want it explode inside of me nor would i wanna call her n explode everything on her.. so decidede i would go play basketball but moi bro call n say he wanna go out!!?? i m too pek chek to have the patience to go shopping but went out with ah JieK(moi cousin) n moi bro anyway.. hiaz tt bro of mine can hardly make up his mind i think tt's the only thing tt makes him so libran!! indecisiveness!! he suggested orchard, parkway, bugis, tampines mall...... n guess wad we ended up tampines mall..!! argh.. the worst thing is tt we headed first to simei mrt station thinking tt we will be going to orchard or bugis but who knows we took a station down to TM..!! argh.. oki as i say i have no patience to shop so i need to do something instead of walking aimlessly.. n we headed to the game arcade.. humph come to think about it.. it had been almost yrs+ since i last stepinto a game arcade.. but nvm change 2bucks to play for wad i normally play.. time crisis2.. skills had rot a little but not bad i m still able to reach stage 3 al most till the finishing. where i loss my calmness n shooting all over the place without noticing anything. haha tt got me killed.. n the cause of tt is when moi bro told me to see something!! beside the time crisis machine is the erm i dunno wad's tt call.. the hitting of the dics thingy where u need to hit the disc into the goals opp u..anyway it is something like ice hockey juz tt u play wit both hands.. yup so there is this couple playing there i dun think they are local tho they are chinese.. hiaz kk.. tt lady was wearing a low cut.. yup.. a low cut shirt.. n playing tt game u will need to bend down yup.. a low cut shirt n bending down.. oki u should know now wad u can see if u r standing opp her.. erm.. oki.. the funniest part is tt it seems like a whistle tt calls all flock to her from the pastures.. gradually it became YoungManClubAssociation around the table.. haha all races, young n old gathered to have a glance of the free show.. erm does she notice it or even does her bf knows tt she is featured on a theatre screen" ?? hee'hee i doubt she doesn't knows tt she is catching the eyes of everyone coz there is this lill boy who actually was standing by the side of the table staring at the two "pApaYas" nvm about tt another guy came up wanting to take a shot of it. reported to me by moi bro!! oh no!! i think tt's more than obvious isn't it.. so does her bf knows?? i guess he is enjoying it too.. hahaha..

saturday was a big flare up.. hiaz thought of going to the library to do some research for my project.. n of coz thought of danica so asked her along but she din give a confirm ans. so i din bother to go to the lib either n headed straight to ch.. met moi sis n lill gurls at the interchange so went down together.. was deep in thought again when i m on the bus.. about? wad else.. hiaz.. there goes all my brain cells recently.. oki then met up with xian shushu at orchard to get present for eunice, felicia n vera.. er the big headache again.. wad to get for them? alright this is worst coz it is a present for gurls.. we went down to far east.. walk the whole building twice looking for the ideal present for them n also looking for a pretty tennis cap for danica.. alright saw a few of them at 77th street one of them was very nice a Rudolph Valentino(* wth is this?? nv heard of wan!) anyway it is selling at $24.90 n the other Von Dutch which was quite plain but it has a very nice pink n gd quality selling at $14.60 humph.. alright i m a libran so we walk in n out, out n in deciding on which one should i get for her.. haha.. can't make up my mind so we went to get the present for tt 3 sis first came to this shop tt sells t-shirt.. there was a new design call newbiE hahaha.. cute name.. the prints on the t-shirt was nice also.. so got 3 for them diff design n diff colour.. hee'hee wondering will XS be too small for vera..!!?? so far no news from them so should be alright ba.. ;p then xian shushu went to get a bag for himself .. N YESH i haven't decide on the cap thingy.. hiaz.. anyway we went down to bugis thinking that there will be more design there n at a better price.. but who the hell proved wad i said was correct!! we saw nothing of wad i want at bugis street!! argh.. then head to Bugis The Edge.. argh.. walk from the other end which means at the other end would be 77th street if really can't find anything then bo bian liao lor.. hiaz.. i proved it all tt wad u can think of 77th have it the best.. bought the cap from 77th street n phew tt was the last piece.. argh.. lucky ME! oki then went over to my uncle's place n granny?? where r u?? hee hee yup granny came over to s'pore staying over at moi uncle's place.. :)

a sleepless sat nite woked up early on sunday morning.. n went for breakfast with watashi no obasan.. had a gd chat then but was quite rush for me coz was late for setting up the sound system for the sunday sch svc.. hiaz.. the youths are leading the sunday sch svc again n they did a very gd job i would say.. haha.. hiaz was quite pek chek when doing the sound also coz the speaker was move n the sound distribution was wrong thru out.. musicians can't hear the other instruments n the front crowds hear diff to tt of the rear crowds argh.. .. was darn frustrated.. n guess wad i had to :) even tho i feel frustrated.. tt's wad i hate but it had always been like this.. living in this world we always put a fake self in front of the real one.. like bro enhan said.. .. hiaz... nvm about tt anyway.. then after their svc there was a breifing n blah blah blah.. hiaz tt morning msg'ed danica to ask if she wanna meet me tt nite got her cd with me n wanna give her the cap as a surprise.. well was suppose to go out with zhongyi, kianyong, jing xian, jun quan, eunice, felicia n vera.. argh but still deciding about it.. i really dun feel like going coz they are going to blade argh.. i dunno how to blade k.. n learning it will kill the half of me.. n also danica hasn't confirm if she will meet me tt nite.. hiaz tt spoils almost 3/4 of the mood.. so sianz.. but anyway lastly decided to go down with much persuassion from kianyong n jingxian.. haha had a gd laugh there as i see zhongYi trying to learn how to blade n fell 6 times.. hahahaha... hee'hee.. i m so mean aren't i.. ;p i din bother to do anything juz followed behind walking hee'hee kianyong was walking with me.. eh thanZ bro.. hee'hee.. thanZiE ... time fly past n it was nearing 7pm n guess wad she din reply.. argh.h almost going to pluck out every strand of my hair liao.. argh .. n i decided to do something which i used to think tt it is stupid to do... i msg n tell her tt i will be waiting for her there.. oki anyway i din waited long she came down around 745.. hmm... with her aunt.. :( i wanna meet her not her aunt n her... -____-!? but anyway passed her the cd n the cap.. n we went the opposite direction.. hiaz.. :( oki tt nite i did everything tt was totally out of my normal self.. as i was walking the other way i felt someone or something pulled my hair.. turn round there was no one behind me..!! !! !! then i felt the urge to run back to her.. i turn back n walk swiftly to look for her.. but she is not there anymore i searched the whole place called her hp.. but then she wasn't there n she din ans.. she disappeared?.. argh.. i dunno y tt feeling was in me.. i dunno wad all this means but at tt very moment i know tt all i want now is to see her i need to tell her something.. when i was to give up i called her another time she picked it up n say she is at isetan.. i went over to meet her.. n i was dumbstruck when i saw her!! argh tt courage to speak was gone.. after awhile of silence i throwed everything out holding her hands looking into her eyes i told her i need her n i love her.. .. i know tt all i ever want was to be with her.. was kinda amazed by myself for wad i did tt nite.. i always find it stupid for guys to be waiting for gurls who won't turn up.. stupid to throw all he could in going after a gurl.. n i nv ever tell a gurl straight in the eyes tt i love her no matter how much she means to me not even so for those scandals tt i had.. coz i will nv receive the same reply.. i want eternal but i m scared of the present.. n now i realise how much i have to do to reach the door to her heart.. i love u, danica............ was wondering who pulled my hair? an Angel or a Devil? tt tug on my head gave me all tt i need to go back to her.. tho we are meant to wait but i accepted it.. the courage to need her.. the courage to love her.. answer me are u the Angel or the Devil? if u r the Angel then i shall believe she is the one, if u r the Devil then she is nv meant to stay.. but i wanna believe it was an angel a kind little cupid who can't stand my stupidity n came over to pull my hair saying "U THIS LITTLE GOOD FOR NOTHING PIG HEAD BRAINLESS ASS!.. GO BACK TO HER TELL HER HOW MUCH U NEEDED HER HOW MUCH SHE MEANS TO U.. GO!! DO U STILL WANT HER TO WALK OF JUST LIKE TT NOT KNOWING HOW MUCH SHE MATTERS IN YOUR HEART?"

humph.. tt was the most crazy weekend i had in my whole 20 yrs. hee'heee something heart warming happened this morning mumther made breakfast for me.. THANZIE THANZIE ma!! humph kinda forgot when was the lst time she made breakfast.. i think it was when dad was still around.. i remembered clearly when we lived at Potong Pasir we had a very cosy breakfast together dad, mum, me, bro n sis.. sis was still about 2yrs old n me 10 moi bro 8.. we had toasted sandwhich n tang yuan.. yep yep.. i love thos with peanuts inside.. they are sweet n nice. hee'hee.. i tried making some but it is either too small or out of shape.. haha.. it was so fun.. "memories brings back smile if we dun curse it with angers for what he or she had done".. the breakfast today brought back the same smile 10yrs ago.. tho the only diff was tt i m having the breakfast myself..

alright tt's all i have to post.. hope i have a good sleep today again haha.. having coughs n many signs of the body putting up a riots inside.. better get more rest.. u too(* whoever u r, my fren, my best friend, my enemy, a stranger or even an alien) yesh u reading my blog.. drink more water, sleep well, n take care.. dun fall sick..

Here I Am @ 10/26/2004 09:25:00 AM

Friday, October 22, 2004

helo(o.0)

hee'hee broke my own record for being late.. reached at 0940 this morning hahaha wanna know why? here it is:
first alarm rang at 0630 woke up n switch it off almost immediately,
second alarm at 0635 shut it off once it rang.. n doze back..
third alarm at 0700 got up n turn it off.. then stare at ceiling.. wondering wondering... SHOULD I GO TO SCH TODAY?? n tt spent 20mins of my morning time.. thought of the time i m left with to odo my project n it got me on my foot getting ready to go to .... -_-' sch............ alright use all the time i had got to do everything i had to do in the morning.. n also did some tt i dun need to also..hahaha.. oki firstly cut my finger nails.. then took a shiok shiok bath.. n then stroll into room to change my clothes n wondering wad should i wear today.. by tt time it was around 0800... then had my breakfast argh.. the angry stuff wanted a coffee for breakfast but guess wad..!!?? GDI..!! i poured in the 3 in 1 coffee powder then to find out tt there are no boiling water.. oh SHUX!! today was the second time this happened.. argh.. i had to turn on the shower heater to the warmest... er.. nvm about it .. it wasn't tt hot either.. hiaz.. er un-warm Coffee is quite disgusting.. anyway.. then went to pack my stuff n change my ear ring.. hahaha.. muahahaha.. wad a dilly dally delly morning haha.. 0830 left my house.. tt is the time i m suppose to reach my lab hahaha.. but luckily bus was fast n manage to reach sch at 0940 hee'hee not tt late tho.. HAHAHA...

oki now going to play pool at AMK... hahahah.. back to blog after tt..

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hee'hee back liao..

i won all 3 rounds

oki.. cont from where i last stop.. ... erm ... .. oki miss Singapore idol again yest hiaz.. when i switch on the TV it was the judges speaking to sylvester already.. then Leandra's turn.. hiaz.. missed Maia's performance but haha guess wad i still vote for her tho thru sms.. found some prob with my phone.. er can't call any 1900 calls.. hiaz.. nvm anyway checked her.. see her did the bOogiE OogiE wOogiE... wOo.. n next to her blog.. guess wad LTF told me tt Maia is with Sylvester!!!! he heard it from Glenn Ong's program on 95fm this morning.. er.. is tt true..!! oh no..

alright dun wanna tok too much about her liao.. anyway.. was rather sianz now the day b4 yest moi supervisor came in to tell me to do something for my project.. hiaz.. he handed me stuffs tt he doesn't even know how to do.. hiaz.. 2 weeks left lao Ang!! how u expect me to complete...!! n guess wad no more P900 liao..

oki better get going to do my work.. if not hiaz.. will kena the head twist liao.. haha..

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Here I Am @ 10/22/2004 11:59:00 AM

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

helo(-___-)Zzz

illness list:

- sleep deprivation

- sour neck

- tummy riot

- m&m's addiction

- freshMilk deprivation

- fatal sianZation

- brain dead warning!

- continous contagious yawning

- hastened rotting process

any medicine tt can save me??

oki tt's wad happening now in the lab..

juz reach lab n started blogging coz i can't think of anything to do. .. hiaz.. sianZation.. & yup i'm very late again hee'hee.. again almost half of the ppl in this lab is missing.. n tt's a ultimate sianz .. felt so much like sleeping at home.. argh..!!

oh gosh.. i'm juz feel so sleepy anyway had my ear stucked with phones playing F.I.R. oh yesh!!

oki nothing on the agenda today juz tt i woke up late this morning n forgot to bring along my running stuff.. argh.. gonna get a big scolding when i see them later.. hiaz.. oki oki..

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Here I Am @ 10/13/2004 09:26:00 AM

Friday, October 08, 2004

helo(o.O)

din go to sch today coz.. wanna wait for the ns password n userID.. humph today is the last day for the booking of dates for medical checkup le.. pls give me some days.. hee'hee.. the letter better arrive early...

oki.. dl'ing a new anime.. dearS is taking its own sweet time..

!! so went ahead to search for other anime n came across 'bleach' quite a nice new wan.. anyway onli the first epi is out so gonna wait too.. alRigte.

as usual moi supervisor came down to see me yest.. hiaz.. juz dunno y is he my supervisor ..

he came asking wad progress i had of coz i did everything tt he wanna me to do.. n nothing more hee'hee.. lazy lar.. but then he came asking me about port numbers n stuff & then a surprise to me is tt he doesn't really know stuffz about Wireless Messaging API !!

argh.. !! wad's this?? erm i think this time i'm in a hot soup.. supervisor doesn't know much = proj student gonna put in 150% of work!! argh..! up till now the work i put in is less than 40% sia.. want a 110% jump of productivity n efficiency is impossible.. coz yest right after he left i went for break then break then break n more breaks.. hahaha.. but it isn't tt i did nothing k.. i did.... ..... erm....... ....... ....... erm complete CT force level 1 (* a game played using visual boy console) hahaha..

heehee" k lar.. anyway proj work is hanging there also coz need to wait for the P900 to be in for the testing out of my application..

... ... kept getting stomachAches recently.. think should be the M&m's hee'hee had been eating alot of M&m's recently almost one pack everyday.. i'm loving it..

alrite whole body aching!! wed went to play Bball in the afternoon argh.. had been few yrs since i last played Bball in the afternoon sun.. it was a 1 1/2 hr game n i'm charcoaled took me 5yrs to whiten a little n all tt 5 yrs was wasted in jus an hr more.. hiaz..

sad.. late evening went running.. haha.. too bad ivy can't join us.. was a nice run.. me ran at a faster speed coz got tt LTF pressure sia.. eh boy i think u can make it to 11min for ur running leh.. then swimming they went n left me with AiNee a malay gal.. chatTer cHatteD cHatTy we went as they swim..

hee'hee recently our group had been suffering from major Comm breakDown.. all diff channel at the same time wan.. worst was yest PF say the meat in her noodles is pork not minced pork coz minced pork not tt big !!??

erm.. we tried to explain tt it is minced pork, obviously it is.. but juz dunno y she insists tt it isn't!! wierd.. n she cont saying tt it is pork meat coz minced pork are smaller.. erm... *getting very irritated now..* told her tt minced pork can be pinched together n will look bigger.. n still she say it is pork not minced pork n say the minced pork in a coffee shop somewhere in yishun are very small wan.. *alright fedUP by now.. n..

* argh..! wierd.. hahaha..

hiaz.. doubt i'll be able to catch Resident Evil 2 Apocalypse in the cinema.. hiaz.. too poor le.. anyway.. will get the VCD from my uncle..

neh

"wo xiang yao kan jian ni de yan jing,

ting jian ni de sheng ying,

bu guan duo xiao sheng wo hui yong xing de ting,

bu guan duo xiao sheng,

duo xiao sheng,

wo ye hui yong xing yong li zai ling ting.

wo xiang yao kan jian ni de yan jing,

ting jian ni de sheng ying,

bu guan duo xiao sheng wo hui yong xing de ting,

bu guan duo xiao sheng,

duo xiao sheng,

ying ni de sheng ying zai wo xing shi zui wei dong ting.."

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Here I Am @ 10/08/2004 09:40:00 AM

Monday, October 04, 2004

helo(O.o)

bloggiE!!.. oki still the same blogging from my lab.! argh. sianZationS.. !! don't know how to carry on with my proj. n erm.. basically doing nothing everyday.. hiaz.. waiting for SoneEricsson P900 hee'hee i'll be doing my proj with tt..

songZ.. !! haha.. gotto install the application into tt phone n make sure it runs there.. wooHOo. wondering if they will give me the phone if my proj works huh..? haha dreaminG!

anyway had my birthday on the 27th n it was a real cool 20th birthday.. was fun, touching, shiok, n erm.. cool.. ? anyway my sec buddiEz bought me a brown t-shirt n a brown mesh cap.. woo.. real cool huh.. i luv the t-shirt alot.. muackZ muackZ

.. n the mesh cap is real nice but too bad huh i look like a perfect malay guy with tt mesh cap..

it jus doesn't siuts me very well.. but i like it tho.. hee'hee N arh thanZie to one of my poly fren bought a cake down to sch all the way from her home tho she was on MC tt day due to eye infection.. erm.. thanZie. anyway celebrated her birthday today in sch also. hee all of us gave her a surprise.. hee hee something funni happened also..

hweeTong got a bird Raid right in front of his face n falls right in between his legz .. wooHOo.. hhahaha..

. kk had been a very very fun september.. went out to get ariffin's present n spent almost the whole nite trying to get something for tt big business guy.. n finally decide on a wallet.. n guess wad his birthday had passed by few days n the wallet is still here with me.. 0_0"

.... last sat went out for supper.. n ended up in changi village at 3am again this time round trying to catch some in actions in the car hahahaha.. saw numbers of cars parked around the dark dark bush n there the car go ROX ROX n ROX.. hahaha.. at the end of the road was a nice view of the airport runway but too bad the road to there is full of ................. erm..' dunno how to describe.. haha.. but anyway found out tt nite zhongYi is a "GOOD" driver!! argh..

keke... there goes the month of 'alot of birthdays'.. kk.. hee'hee din get a pink boxer this birthday.. HAHAHAHA"

still wishing for my own Vespa..!

keke.. having a mild flu n a little of throat irritation.. hope it doesn't get any worst.. alrite..gotta remind myself about the NS medical checkup gonna register it soon.. dateline is nearing.. "RAYMOND, REGISTER FOR UR NS MEDICAL CHECKUP!!!!!!" hiaz.. days are passing by fast.. gonna graduate nxt yr.. n NS is there waiting for me.. SAF = Serve And Fuckoff.. hahaha.. heard this from one of my fren in guards..

.... .... think tt's about it all.. alot of sianZationS tt's all..

anyway to wish all birthday boy n gurl of oct, a HApPy BirThDaY:

1st oct

- ariffin

- chingyaw

- huilin

3rd oct

- lill bro

13 oct

- lao da..

kian yong

26 oct

- eunice

- felicia

- vera

my birthday wish list:

- danica, hope u pass ur exams.. wish u all da best, it had been a surprise to have u in my life this few months. maybe after ur O's u will know how to treasure love more.. i wish u all da best in life.. sorry it had been short but i hope it is sweetness tt is left in the memories.. 'ni de shen ying yong yuan dou hui shi zui dong ting de, shuo bu chu kou de wo ai ni xian zai zhi neng cheng shui zai wo men xing li de hui yi. xu de yuan wo cong bu qi dai hui shi xian ke shi yu jian guo ni jue dui shi shen ming zhong zui da de li wu, zhi xiang geng ni shuo sheng xie xie.. ni shuo guo bu xi huan cheng jing yong you ke shi ru guo shi jian ye bang bu liao wo men na jiu ran wo men de chi xing shou hou sui feng er qu zhi shao hui yi hai shi tian mi de....bu yong dan xing bu yong ku qi bu yong tai xiang wo ying wei wo hui zai ni zao de dao de di fang deng zhe ni dang ni xue hui ai wo de shi hou neng zai zhe li zhao dao wo.. ~~kimi o aishiteru~~'

- i want a vespa

- my bike license

- i want all my dreamZ come true (* "iMpoSsiBle" -____________-"!)

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Here I Am @ 10/04/2004 01:50:00 PM