my own piece of mind

Saturday, March 12, 2005

helo(-.-)

just b4 i get onto my proj again..

had a overwhelm of emotions.. was thinking thru so many things about life about christianity n even myself.. early this week there is a guy committed suicide together with his whole family, yest a sister in church committed suicide, this morning after breakfast were at mount zion bookshop n heard the conversation between the shopkeeper n my mum about a christian stealing books in tt bookstore.. wondering n wondering.. hiaz. y did the whole family committed suicide.. y did she committed suicide .. y did tt someone stole from tt shop..

of coz i know it well tt i can ask a whole lots of Y.. n y.. but none of them will be answered till the day i see my lord in heaven but it still caused me to think .. maybe was b'coz the similarity between all this things tt happen was 'christian' .... the shopkeeper of mount zion said tt after the stealing incident she kept asking Y? n even caused her to feel depressed.. none the less i kept strong to allowing myself to ask y.. but never to doubt the faithfulness of my god..

wad was god trying to tell me or even a whole lots of other christians? there is never a perfect being among us.. so are christians.. we are imperfect.. everyone makes mistakes.. but y are we so overwhelm emotionally by such incidents.. was it the way we paved ourself to be more mature, more holy, more righteous, more of other good things than normal beings? but in fact we aren't and we are just like normal beings.. we are not a higher level humans living in the midst of humans neither are we aliens living among the people.. are we dividing ourselves the sheeps from the goats.. was it tt which made us feel about wad had happen ?

was it guilt tt caused the whole family to perished?

then wad was it tt will made someone to steal?

alot of unanswered.. this is life.. we can ask a whole lots of Y.. y does he get good results when he din even studies, n i studied to deserve such result? y does he get all the riches tt he wants but i work thru days n nites to make ends meet? y does he gets all the girls he likes but i failed on every date? .. after a whole lots of y.. we still needa move on with time.. god will be there to grant strength in each of our days as we journey into wad we seem unfamiliar and fearful, he din say tt it will be easy.. but he did say tt he is "Emannuel" ~ god will be with us .. amen ..

Here I Am @ 3/12/2005 08:45:00 PM