my own piece of mind

Friday, December 10, 2004

HiYa(o.o)

ohAyO.. yaWnz yawNz... argh.. it is friday morning.. now? dl'ing anime, bleach.. n erm nothing else to do le so came to blog.. hee'hee..

was on the bus.. n i saw someone like u at a bus stop.. i turned away after the first look and nv wanted to look again but... ..... i did turn around n took a 2nd glance.. wasn't u.. am i glad or am i sad tt she wasn't u? well i dunno about tt.. hiaz it has been 4 weeks after we ended.. time passed by fast.. saw ur msn online wanted to say a hello to u but hesitate.. hesitate thinking wad would tt hello bring about? y should i be bothered to say another hello? ............. the day b4 at nite was waiting for a fren at the mrt station n saw someone like u again.. ..... forget... have i forgotten? no i hadn't.. it isn't hard to forget isn't it? seeing someone like u brings ur memories back, hearing songs tt u like bring memories of u back.. i just hate one thing.. y hadn't i forget u? am i just escaping from it? nope i ain't.. it is a must.. ...... ........ wad if we see each other in the street?

~light in the heart~
that light in the corner it seems so familiar,
to the heart tt once felt it,
to the heart tt was once blinded by it,
summer rains fall but it nv washes away the memories u left behind,
wind blew to made me realise tt i m still breathing..
stand again, i will
to relise my dreams are waiting for me,
deep beyond the clouds ur smile shines on me,
and it haunts me with poignant sorrows..
to the heart tt once loved
for the heart tt once shared
with the heart tt was broken once again
i will have my blessing for u written on the moon, when u asked who cares?
may it shine to u like its moonlight, " i cared & will always be here"..

humph... ... feeling alright this morning just some thought running about in my brain.. yep yep.. yest was browsing thru the 'who lives near you' webbie and was viewing its kopiTiam *a forum* and there was this topic about a auntie begging for $5 or $2 around tamp central.. haha.. reaction from the peeps there are full of angers but kinda funni in how ppl will throw away their pride to disgrace themselves by begging.. ever wonder y din they work themselves.. yup tt thought.. hiaz... is it just how some ppl wants their lives to be? read an article b4 it says tt a fit young guy around his twenties is begging at a underpass in orchard rd.. humph wad's up with these ppl? just twenties n he is begging for $$... humph.. wad has this world become? had $$ became such a unbearable truth tt none wanna still work for it? of coz it is fact tt if u wanna be living in s'pore u need to have $$ when u want ur pride in this society u need to have $$ .. it is a difficult truth to accept but it is this society isn't it.. $$ had overulez humanities? nope it hasn't.. there are still ppl with hearts to share with them the little $$ tt they have.. but y? can these ppl just go begging forever? wad are they thinking? $$ is the hard-earned reward of a person, to share ur reward with someone who does nothing but just beg.. how many ppl are willing to do tt? .. when u r a dollar richer someone else is poorer by a dollar that very instance, that's how $$ are speculated.. poor ppl nv disappears till the very day rich ppl vanishes.. if u wanna survive u just had to learn to earn.. tho it means to rip of from another.. when u r rich it means to say tt someone out there is poor.. so wad u eanred is it urs? yes of coz it is.. but just share a little of it to those poor coz it was them tt u became rich.. wondering so should i be poor or should i be rich when i grow up? rich of coz.. but also as a blessing to those poor.. contradicting isn't it? life itself is contradicting i always say tt..

oki.. hee'hee yest nite was thinking of a fren i made 2yrs ago.. he is a blind christian met him at the concourse his name was coco i think it was his name which made me rem him up till now ba.. humph.. kinda forgot our conversation then but i will always rem the passion he had inside him for life for god.. he is such a living example.. life, mine n urs, everyone on earth, everyone has the same life the onli difference in it is the choices isn't it? mine is called life, urs is also called 'life', his, hers all r called 'life' aren't they..? wad makes life diff r the choices we made.. n in coco i saw a life tt has a meaning to fulfill, a passion burning, a concern for all tt crosses his path.. such a blessing he is to the ppl around him.. tho we din contact each other or anything else but it was tt moment when we crossed each other path tt one day i will search my memory to see tt there are ppl like him living..

oki oki enuff of my thought le shoo.. shoo... x'mas is nearing nearing.. humph sad.. no x'mas tree at home.. i still want my white x'mas tree hee'hee since last yr i had wanted to get a white x'mas tree le maybe nxt yrs x'mas i will have one.. yep yep i will get one white x'mas tree nxt yr x'mas.. n HAHA i made a big big demand to a fren hee'hee tt's a big cheese log cake..hee'ehee is there something like cheese log cakes? dunno leh.. humph i just LuV x'mas it is unlike other festivals where the joy will get bland.. dunno y it just refreshes each x'mas humph.. x'mas will be such a lovely nite.. if onli it snows in s'pore.. it would make x'mas PERFECT .. hee'hee..

oki.. enuff of blogging liao.. gonna go brush my teeth.. wash my face then prepare my shirts n stuffz.. coz tml is aunt's wedding le.. would be at my uncle's place for the next few days.. kk.. buaiz.. oh yep tml is mum's b'day.. we got her a necklace.. humph thought it was kinda nice.. anyway sis will settle everything.. hahaha.. oh yar still got sis b'day in 4 days .. humph haven't get her anything yet leh.. dunno wad will bro get for her.. humph.. i think for now better settle my own stuff first haha... buaiz..

HOhoHo.. dance dance shall we? my sAntAriNa.. my lovely night is snowing *`*~*``~**

Here I Am @ 12/10/2004 10:14:00 AM