my own piece of mind

Monday, August 09, 2004

helo(o_o)

had a tiring weekend.. juz reach home... was at the 'love singapore' prayer mtg in church this morning and then stayed at my uncle house to watch 'van helsing' and then watched Singapore Idol juz now (* eyes POP out.. as my bro said it is a show to be laughed) i had quite anticipated that it would be quite funny, unseenable and then came to realize that Singapore Idols has so much more talents to those of William Hung.. oh no!! especially the lEmoN tReE HAHAHAHA and the StriPer and the gal who juz went in and cried thru out.. hahahahaHAHA.. pls dun play this show internationally.. it will widespread a serious-rofl epidemic.. ahaha.. anyway.. didn't join in the cell outing.. tho .. hiaz.. anyway din manage to meet up with her. she had tution on a public holiday.. (* where on earth are there such good tutors who are willing to work in a public holiday's afternoon) hiaz.. anyway.. relationship, i felt it is the most contradicting, most hypocrytical, most tiring thing in the world i long to get into one but i when i am almost there i retreated.. ok i think i'll stop talking about this let the lord's will be done.. anyway

went to new-born chinese church first service on saturday after bible lesson on thessalonian in church, with his grace about 30 ppl attended the service.. i was there to check out their sound system and to pick up some new skills.. anyway the sound man there are all new to the system but managed to pick up some skills like setting up systems and tearing them down.. this is the first time i witness how new-born churches start up.. they rented the hall at orchid country club.. then at 5+pm they will start setting the hall up with the instruments then after everything ends they will pack it all up again tedious huh.. but this ppl did it with so much joy, later the days when they grew in great numbers like city harvest or even just like renewal they will give thanks to the lord for this walk of hard work..

then it is to the 'stream of praise' at Bethesda Cathedral on sunday evening (* they had a very good sound system =p ..) .. had such a great time with my lord then.. i think that none other than worship are better than leading ppl close to lord.. had been quite some time since i last worship with such a joyful, full of praising heart.. thanz lord.. yest was their last stop 'stream of praise' had journeyed to taiwan, hong kong for 40 days leaving behind their work and everything.. i think their walk of faith is really a big lesson to be taught.. it had been a wonderful nite with them, with the lord..
"lonliness, it is a void in our heart that was created right on the day we were born, nothing can fill this void for only one. on the very day we found this void we tried to fill it with whatever we can find in this world. we work to earned alot of money hoping that it will fill this emptiness in our heart, but it didn't. we make alot of friends to have them to spend our lonliness time with but when they are gone the emptiness remains. we get the best cars, best stuffs and more but they dun fit into the emptiness it is still there. we get into relationships to have someone to fill the whole of this emptiness but they just don't fill it all. now we qestion why.. why are we born into this family, why isn't there anyone who understand this lonliness which i am feeling why?why?WHY? and so we continue the search and blame but to know that the answer is not to be found here where you live, it is to be found in the one who created you. this emptiness in your heart is created in a very unique way that only the creator could fit himself in, it is a void that god created in us so that he can come in if we open this door to our heart to him. though we may be different in person, in character but none the less we are made the same way, man from soil and the breath of life, women from the ribs of man, and so more for this heart, this void is there in everyone and only he can fill it."
now i finally know of this emptiness.. how occupied it is depends on how open we are to our abba father.

oki this had been a very spiritual filling week.. 11:28.. better get some sleep now still gotto work tml.. erm hee"hee i got a 4hrs off for the overtime work last friday hee"hee.. another 2 and a 1/2 years more and i am out to the social university. question had been starting to spun round my head again and again of coz indecisive, creative and imaginative ppl like me could never stop with one idea and with so many ideas i couldn't choose one either.. but hopefully i would be able to really get myself stable in one road that i like and love with much joy, *erm somehow or anyhow.. :D

ok goodnitez.. better get going to dreamland fast, told her that we will meet there.. haHA found out recently that i m so full of such kind of sweety stuff.. or rather sweet rubbish..

Here I Am @ 8/09/2004 10:24:00 PM