my own piece of mind

Friday, July 09, 2004

helo(*.*) sick & happi

back to blog.. had just fix up my desktop tho not all the viruses and worms are deleted but seems like it is safe to use hee hee..
anyway had change the template of my blog, the previous wan had really gave me a big big headache especially when i had tried so much servers to upload my pics but none of them works, hopefully this template will be gd.. din took me too long to choose this wan (*winks) it is clear, simple n has my fav colour..do give some comments on its look.. hee hee..

hadn't really sit down to blog for quite long le oki tonite i'll settle my butt on this seat till it glows burning red. hee hee..

oki here goes i'm still having my attachment at IBM still feels like i'm a exploited banghla..(* (".)~(.") looks around:"plz dun let anyone in my dept see this") i'm paid low & exploited highly, u know wad some other attachment colleagues & me came to conclude 'if u want ur company's production section to be efficient and cheap, employ attachment students' hiaz.. (* hee hee felt the itch on my mouth.. going get something to bite first) oki bitin n typin now.. anyway i'm sick today erm.. not very sick tho but got a MC so din have to work today ;p but yest when i went to the doc, the first word from him was "hao jiu bu jian" ('long time no see' literaly translated to EngLand) -_-' do u think i wanna see u so often? tho i really wants the MC.. (* hee hee) anyway i din have a fever but my throats itch n feels giddy so the doc thinks tt i m alrite (*tho he din really say tt out but i could fig tt out, coz the way i ans his qn makes me sound very alrite -_-") anyway the next expression from him is like i m seeing him for the sake of the MC.. argh.. alrite tho i really want a day off but i m really not feeling well k doc.. anyway he gave me some pills n a MC.. & i still wanna say 'I M NOT FAKING SICK!' alright.. my buddyBro will be booking out tml n everyone's going clubbing at Music Underground but i'm sick.. :( had my share of clubbing last fri with the other attachment students went down after work to phuture and was damn slammed there then proceed to devils bar.. oki to say the real stuff i dun like devils a single cents at all dun enjoy the crowds no to the music no to the bouncer either hiaz.. argh clubbing will be out of my dictionary le.. anyway i'm FINALLY starting on a proj handed to me for like how many monkey months ago.. felt so bad but started working on the story board le.. (*hee i heard, britney spears ~ everytime `WOOO.. tt song is so nice.. i'm going to get tt album..! know wad i had been waiting by the radio side hoping to here anastasia's ~ left out there alone.. if i din get tt song title wrongly, i love it ULTRA much!!)

-the following is something personal, skip it if u feel uneasy reading it-

went to sunday church service last week, that day was unlike any days when i go to church especially after my spirit left wandering in the wilderness. anyway during the worship holy spirits starts pouring into me it was like wad the F*** is happening to me i felt very uneasy i can't feel anyone around me my eyelids just refused to open next moment i feel myself flying through the great mass of land and to the sky together with the hymns of worships i reached before his throne tho i dun even really dare to believe it, glaring lights tt i daren't even lift up my head.. at that point memories came pouring in, right from my frist step that lands on the ground of this church.. i was being reminded of a vision that i left long ago, it was beautiful, wonderful.. and just as he said he will be our light in our roads ahead he taught me how to walk the road in front of me.. at that point i know very well that wad i m doing now isn't bringing me anywhere in life i need to make a decision now on wad to do, where to go, i can't be so self-centered anymore.. i decided to stop wandering in the wilderness tho i dunno how to strenghten the spirit from the souls desires but i know some how he will make it possible for me.. and i prayed the sinners prayer again.. after tt 2hrs of svc i was still thinking of wad would be of me in days to come, and i came to realize something he is EL.. .. (* dunno how to write down the other enlightenments n spiritual knowledge) i'll remember one thing no ONE is perfect not even christians so wad makes a christian diff? seek god n get the ans from him, i could juz say i learnt it thru such a bad way.. oki going to stop here.

oki tt was a long post :)
anyway recently i was offered a part-time job, hiaz still deciding on whether to take it.. tho it really is impossible to live on the attacment pay but it will tired me out flat if i take tt job.. had to confirm it by this sunday hiaz.. wad should i do? maybe not picking it up.. (*humph) alright tt's wad bothering me for this weekend.. alright i m getting tired n perfect 10 is still not playing the song tt i want to hear (* hiaz :( sad )
oki guess wad!? i finished the whole loaf of bread!! argh.. n tt's my dinner..
better get some rest le my butt is burning warm ;p .. BYeiZ

Here I Am @ 7/09/2004 07:24:00 PM